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When I want something, I ask myself ‘why’.
I seek the most honest, basic answer. Once I’ve reached the base of my desire I can batter make a decsion, and act. Sometimes, I want something for superficial reasons (shoes to impress clients, to fit in with office culture, et cetera) and that’s OK. I buy the impressive shoes, and laugh at myself and the world I put myself in.
Sometimes, the things I want, I already have, but have neglected.
Part of me would like to own land. Why? To free myself from other people’s physical power over me. Why? To have a place to call my own. Really why? To demonstrate my worth and to feel secure.
It would be healthier for me to develop my self-worth without regard to physical things and what people can see, and to work on my insecurities. I could have a big house on my own land and still be disturbed by other people’s powers (compulsory purchase; new railways; flooding; zombie attack) and still feel insecure owing to my past.
It’s not the land that I desire, it’s the prestige and security.
It would be better to be comfortable with people however they percieve me, and to be flexible in the face of uncertainty. The stability and security I crave, I already have, if I just shift my focus and see how well rooted I am in my network.
In Thelema there is a practice called Will which serves the same function, ‘what is my Will?’
It’s the ‘factoring down’ process that’s important, isn’t it?
The practice is called ‘Will’ and the concept is called ‘Will’ as well? No differentiater?
Thanks for reading, Zos93; I hope my offerings inspire or amuse.
The concept is called Will because it’s about testing what your Will actually is, and yes your offering both delight and amuse.