base

Buidling within landscapeWhen I want something, I ask myself ‘why’.

I seek the most honest, basic answer. Once I’ve reached the base of my desire I can batter make a decsion, and act. Sometimes, I want something for superficial reasons (shoes to impress clients, to fit in with office culture, et cetera) and that’s OK. I buy the impressive shoes, and laugh at myself and the world I put myself in.

Sometimes, the things I want, I already have, but have neglected.

Part of me would like to own land. Why? To free myself from other people’s physical power over me. Why? To have a place to call my own. Really why? To demonstrate my worth and to feel secure.

It would be healthier for me to develop my self-worth without regard to physical things and what people can see, and to work on my insecurities. I could have a big house on my own land and still be disturbed by other people’s powers (compulsory purchase; new railways; flooding; zombie attack) and still feel insecure owing to my past.

It’s not the land that I desire, it’s the prestige and security.

It would be better to be comfortable with people however they percieve me, and to be flexible in the face of uncertainty. The stability and security I crave, I already have, if I just shift my focus and see how well rooted I am in my network.

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3 comments on “base
  1. Zos93 says:

    In Thelema there is a practice called Will which serves the same function, ‘what is my Will?’

    • taoboy says:

      It’s the ‘factoring down’ process that’s important, isn’t it?

      The practice is called ‘Will’ and the concept is called ‘Will’ as well? No differentiater?

      Thanks for reading, Zos93; I hope my offerings inspire or amuse.

      • Zos93 says:

        The concept is called Will because it’s about testing what your Will actually is, and yes your offering both delight and amuse.

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